I don't know why I stopped writing... Did I stopped writing because life got busy??? Did I stopped writing because xanga shut down and all the things I wrote from 2002-2010 are all gone and I cannot retrieved it.. Did I stopped writing because I didn't know how anymore... I just got busy in college from 2004-2009 and I was just so in love that I didn't make time to write.... here I am starting a new blog... I have made new blogs before but I never kept at it. I typed but I didn't continue and go on. I was busy working and being a preschool teacher it took a lot of me... Maybe I was tired of writing or maybe I didn't know how to express my feelings. I started a caringbridge website when I was first diagnosed with cancer in 2014 and I typed in there on and off. I hope with this new blog I am doing, I will consistently type and express my feelings. I would like to write again, improve my writing, write poetry again, and writing has helped me express my feelings and it was a really good and positive outlet for me in high school. I'm writing again because I saw my 11th grade English teacher on Tuesday and she inspired and motivated me to write. I need to find the poems I wrote in high school. I love how she said that I was a writer... Somehow I will get back in my writing and this is only the start. I'm glad my friend Lisa told me to start a new blog and now I am just typing away here.. hahaha. Whatever comes in my mind I will start typing it here and it doesn't matter how long it is.
This week has been so awesome but today I had tears in my eyes because my cousin JR passed away. Monday to Thursday, it was so just amazing. Monday, I got to see the eclipse with Genevieve, Gloria, and Noah. It was so fun taking pictures and I even shared my glasses too so my other friends can take a look of the eclipse. Tuesday, I got to see my 11th grade English teacher and I love how she is still so active and I cannot believe she is 73 years old. She made me smile and I shared with her about bay city beacon newspaper and how I am their staff photographer. Wednesday, I had my pet scan and I got to see my friend and his photos are really good. He is a very talented and amazing photographer. I went to my intern and I got my results from my pet scan. It was very good news and I shared it with my family and friends. They were so happy. GOD is so good. I'm really lucky to have all the people in my life. I finally got to pick my glasses. Genevieve and I had a small dinner: heirloom salad, and clam chowder. Genevieve is so nice and I love her so much. Thursday, it was my friend Victor's filing for San Francisco City College Board and I took pictures for that. I enjoy and love taking pictures. I am glad that it turned out good. I got to know more about him. Today, I had my pulmonary function test and bone marrow biopsy. The bone marrow biopsy hurt more than usual. While it was hurting, I meditated and kept saying GOD give me strength and courage and GOD take care of me. While the bone marrow biopsy was happening, my oncologist and I were having a conversation. I was talking about what I have doing and he was asking questions like if I have been camping and going hiking. He even asked me to send him my favorite picture and I ended up sending him links of my photos at bay city beacon. Going home, it was nice to relax and take a nap. I haven't done that for a long time. Then I saw what my older brother posted about my cousin Kuya JR. Around 1:30pm today, I started thinking about him, and my tears started falling from my eyes. I was really crying. I was thinking how young he was since he is only one year older than me. I started thinking the last time I saw him and what we used to do when we were younger. Even though we weren't closed and we were far away from each other, when I was younger, we had good memories together from what I can remember. We used to play chinese checkers, pretended to be power rangers, played egg hunt at his house, and times we hung out at his house. He was very smart too. It was nice to listen to music too today. I vented to my friend lisa how I think I haven't let go of what happened with xanga and I can't believe until this day I'm still talking about it. I used to be such a good writer and then when xanga ended, I stopped writing. I am glad my friend Lisa told me to start a new blog and here I am, having a new blog. This is the start of my writing, getting back into writing at age 31.... This will stimulate my brain and writing is for good for you. I have to work on my grammar too. Don't overthink and I will type whatever comes to my mind each day. One step at a time and do what I can. here is to writing and it will be good to practice. The more I do it, the more I will get better at it. well take care and have a good night.. this is all I have to say... One love, one life, live, laugh, and love...
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